It’s been a crazy world swirling around me over the last few months

…I’ve got not time. …I can’t possibly get that completed. …There’s no way I can fit anything else in my day.  

I’m sure many of you have had similar thoughts before, maybe even right now in your life, or maybe last year or last month.  Well, I’m right in the middle of crazy right now.  And the even nuttier thing is that it’s all great things, it’s all things I agreed to take on, and yet I’m just keeping my head above water.

Last night it didn’t feel like I was going to stay up. I felt pretty close to drowning. I’d worked hard all day, made two dinners, gotten child one to a band concert, attended said band concert, kept child two from being rude/ disruptive during concert and finally gotten everyone to bed, even though I was mean for making them turn off lights at 9:45 pm- I know I’m a horribly mean mom keeping my kids from having melt downs in the morning from being so tired. And the night before I’d stayed up late working and then had my sleep disturbed by a wandering child.  I had planned to work late again, but as the tears filled my eyes because my kids was still telling me he still wasn’t going to sleep, and that I couldn’t make him, I knew the best thing I could do for myself, was to go to sleep so I could “catch up” with work today.

This sense of needing to catch up has been getting worse.  Over the last two weeks this pile up got thicker and thicker and I’m asking myself “how did I end up in this position where I am so stretched thin, where there’s nothing left of me at 9:30pm?”  Well some of this is because of poor planning on my part, some is just being me, because I get excited about ideas and run with them and some is just life.  Right now- just to name a few I’ve got the great amazing Tame Your Tech Class, my impending remodel/ addition to my home, Ms. Fiesty’s circus production, I traveled for half of April for work/ pleasure and I’ve got a stinky kitty who keeps peeing on things (like clean laundry or kids backpacks, or anything else on the floor).  All of it happened at once, because life.

As you can see I’ve got too many plates to spin at once, some of which I’ve picked up, others of which life said “Here take this! Let’s see what happens now! (heeheehee)” None have fallen yet and I don’t think they will.  What I’ve got to figure out now is how to put down some plates, and how to prevent this from happening again.

I’ve been actually working on the putting down plan for two months.  I know isn’t that crazy?  Well yes and no. Yes because I’ve known for 2 months this was getting CRAZY, but no because I want to put these plates down well, with grace and with ability to pick them back up when I desire. And I’ve learned I’ve got to plan my time with less plates, my down time- I’m a doer and a passionate person and I sometimes just keep going and going.  So as you might know I’m going analogue this summer.

I like to remind myself and my clients that although I’m an organizer and a coach, my life is not perfect, everything is not always in order, laundry is my nemesis, and a child acting horrible, and yet what I strive to do, is when things get crazy- and they will with 2 kids, a business, a husband- who owns his own business too, 3 cats, and 2 chickens– figure out how to make it through the current moment with love and sanity AND most importantly how to work on the back end to prevent from that kind of SH…… hitting the fan again.

SO now how do I prevent this from happening again- well some parts of it I probably can’t, I’ve not figured out how to control a cats bladder or “make” my kids go to sleep, but other things yes, I want to create time for creating- which I’ve done very well over the last two years and then time for being fallow- which I haven’t done in 2 years- but shorted up this cycle- look at the seasons- I know it’s growing season right now and planting and so forth, but I’m growing inside by plating the seeds of rest and rejuvenation.

So for me this means saying no, or not now, or not ever.  Even though life is full of amazing things and opportunities for new people friends, knowledge, practices, travel and so forth. It’s become very easy for me to forget that when I’m going all the time, I miss the quieter ideas, the less forceful voices that are truly deep and profound, I don’t let the dust settle to get the clarity that will take me on to whatever is the next thing.  When I don’t examine all the shiny things and decide which ones sparked the most, then there’s so much distilled the sparkly and shine are lost.